Saturday, September 8, 2007

Proseuxi...

Skeftomai tin mexri twra poreia mou kai olo dipla se "periptwseis" vriskomouna...
Mia me mplegmenous me narkwtika, pou skeftontousan tin dosi tous, mia me paidia xwrismenwn goniwn me apisteuta polla psixologika kai sixnes taseis apomonwsis, mia me gkomenous allwn ginaikwn, pou skeftontousan ekeinin kiriws, i apla me gkomenous pou skeftontousan sinexeia kai mono tin parti tous!

Agapite Theouli, steile mou epitelous ki emena enan antra pou na mporei na me exei sinexeia panw apo olous kai apo ola! Na skeftetai mono emena kai na min ton apasxoloun alla themata... H ki an ton apasxoloun, otan einai mazi mou na ta ksexnaei. Na einai diatetheimenos na girisei ton kosmo anapoda gia na me vrei, ki otan me vrei na kserei ti na me kanei. Auto Thee mou, auto prosekse to poli se parakalw... Otan me vrei, na kserei ti na me kanei. Oxi na me vrei kai na fwnaksei ki allous trigirw gia na doun oti me vrike... Ax Theouli mou, min me afiseis na ksanampleksw me kapoion pou tha me podopatisei gia otidipote allo mporei na anakalipsei o anthrwpinos nous... Min me afiseis na ginw dekaniki tou opoioudipote malaka niwsei oti mporei na stirixtei panw mou... KANEIS den mporei na stirixtei panw mou, giati KANENAN den thelw na stiriksw pia...

Kourastika Thee mou kai thelw kapoios na stiriksei emena! Na exei tin diathesi kai ton xrono - ki an den exei ton xrono, na prospathisei kai na ton vrei! - kai na mou deiksei ton kosmo me alla matia, apo auto pou exw sinithisei na vlepw tooooooosa xronia!!! Kai telos, se parakalw min mou ksanasteileis kapoion anasfali! Oxi pia! Des pws exw katantisei... Lypisou me! Lypisou me kai krata ton makria, opoios ki an einai autos... Opoios ki an einai...

Eyxaristw...

1 comment:

PG said...

Αχ...Ποσο μου θυμίζεις τις δικές μου ευχές...Ισως επιλέγεις και εσυ ατομα που δεν αξίζουν πραγματικά...Πόνος ,πόνος...Με χάλασες τώρα με έκανες χώμα.Ψυχικά προβλήματα ,την ανωμαλία την έφαγα στη μάπα..